老实说  最近的闷事件在于胖了

俺不能说胖了很多

因为本来就是胖胖的

俺怕长此以往会成大肥婆  俺不要

问题是 俺不想刻意减肥 搁一搁 顺其自然

观望一个月

你应该是瘦了吧  有没有人照顾你

云里雾里

分不清

 敷衍已成习惯

思考是负担

更远的将来

同样行走 晒日 风景

言语 留给自己

情绪 留给另一个人

时间又飞快

胜过度日如年

却未成长

一如既往

我行我素

这种封藏 让人感觉麻木 却又心疼 

好像玻璃瓶中的蝴蝶 会有一天因为没有充足的空气而死去吧

SO。追寻阳光

Paradise hotel

sailing cross the seas
pursuing sorry ships don‘t know they’re sinking
holding on until all hope is gone
focusing my eyes on distant stars so far away they‘re blinking
on and off and on and off and on
but the bird in my hand is promising paradise
venture forth from cave
to conquer everything that ¡s moving
pleasure never really lasting very long
roller coaster ride the lows the highs
feels like you¡¯re grooving
though it¡¯s on and off and on and off and on
and the bird in my hand is promising paradise
all the actors in your play will do their part
and go their way
or dance as long as you will pay
but she will never fly away
man behind the curtain
pulls the levers for the sheep
for me tonight there¡¯ll be no sleep until the dawn
neon sign from paradise hotel across the street
is blinking on and off and on and off and on
and the bird in my hand is promising paradise

这儿真是我的亲爱的日记本本本。用这样最真挚，最不造作的，最口语化的书写，是要有多爽快啊。我在寻思如何真正又开始新的新的生活。我要不一样不一样不一样！我说的不一样不像以前那么稍稍肤浅了。你懂的。

亲，我最近又玩上了SINA围脖：http://t.sina.com.cn/cosimo 加俺吧.想来我真是微博的超级fans，fanfou,twitter都早早注册有号。SINA是中国的好围脖。

    推荐最近的小音乐：http://www.douban.com/artist/classizy/

  再PS：我发现模板有我最喜爱的the big bang theory的SHELDON的模板。你看了没你看了没？他太招人爱了。我要用它！！

        今儿个是阴天。昨天太阳高照。与“兜儿”一块散步于快乐ZOO.ZOO.ZOO..ZOO. 动物园的英文单词构词原由是什么没有深究过，不过刚打出这仨字母就觉得很欢。ZOO，你有感觉到吧？

         很奇怪的一刹那感觉，就是看到长颈鹿哥，在那巴眨大眼，咀嚼东西吃时，我突然血液循环加速，心动。这个现象，我把它理解为动物特性，我觉得他忒性感 。哈哈。我真是够动物的。

         虽然昨天可以见到有人穿着短衣短裤，像我穿着人字拖出门的实在是太少。我是前天傍晚，准备去M记买点心，的时候，寻思着穿什么鞋好舒服，我不可能登个高跟随意奔跑，那是要多别扭，我不是星哥。我找出人字拖，哇，简直是踏破全天下无敌手。这是我这双黑色HOTWIND人字拖的法号。阿门。

         其实最近想的事情，做的事情也多。想归想，做吧，做吧，做吧。TMD不做哪来结果。就是爱一个人，偶尔也要做对吧？（这话还好吧，我是淑女风）。

          好了，继续。

渐渐  我知道自己在乎也关心了  因为那个时候心里感觉到温暖 他们的快乐也使我感受到30%

快乐需要被自己认可  并不是脆弱 但还是希望有人心疼 有时放下自以为是 作一个平易近人的小可爱 那似乎更快乐

踩着节拍 手舞足蹈 在人眼中 你的快乐也感染着别人 看自己如何表达 很久没有记录文字 这种久违分享的感觉

我希望有人看到时 嘴角上扬 当我看到别人的文字或图画 我也微笑着 是快乐的 满满的温暖和实在  

这样说 我是想提醒自己 人与人自间的交流互相影响 HOH。

      I dreamed of you two times.bella.

      我的确梦见了两次，觉得要记录下来。梦见你同我儿时的伙伴一起，我们已有些淡了。虽然梦里我们的年纪好像也是二十出头一般。第二个梦，梦见一同游玩，然后竟然梦见我竟然pregnant.有些可笑，有些莫名其妙。

       长话短说，我从不会主动关心人。然而，在我心里我挺关心你。想必现在的那边的时差，你现在应入睡了。有些渴望相见的那一天。再说如今，发现生活中的琐事果然是非常多，大人不容易做，然而像我们这些慢慢长大的人，要适应真的需要一个大过程。某天可以真正的说，我XXX，是一个可以真正担当的人。不知你是否还会来此地。继续下去吧。像个接力棒继续下去吧，当一本书继续写下去吧，当一部电影继续不断拍续集，当一个永动机。

            yah,i am cosimo.hey,where r u .it is all about the life story.go on...wait for ur new.

music:小河--飞的高的鸟不落在跑不快的牛背上

      so long time no see.The song " this kinda of thought" by Joanna Wang brought my thought to u again.

       Yah,it is 2010 now.Happy happy new great year!

       I've gathered many many words to pour here for you,but i dont know how to start,in fact ,i am not very happy,i dont know how to restart ro revive,though most of the persons around me cant feel the real me.I am accustomed to hiding myself .

       I know it is the hard time for me now.or it is my real show time? Fortunately,the blog can bring me back to calm.

        So, It is okay.

           Hello, Mr. 2010.We are here. Let's be together,tie to each other.

           I'm gonna watch your steps.

           From now on, 1st Jan,2010, we will sign everything ends up with 2010 till 2011.

           Another new year, our time.

           Happy new year, Mr. 2010.

       In fact,i wanna also go on with the dicussion ,it is funny,and meaninful.eh.But a new one is needed.So i decided not to go on with this discussion..

       Maybe in the future,writing in english for this blog can become one of my habits.It let me feel relaxing and ....happy.Recently,I havent seen any new movies.I played the old movies again and again.But it is a good idea.U can really find some new.the day before yesterday,I also had a date with the old movie by Fruit Chen (   I love him very very much,a great director !!!) ,the chinese name is (人民公厕），it is some kind of Literary film (文艺片,maybe not translatedi in this way,i 'm not sure),the storyboard of the movie is very thoughtful or implicit (yah,this word may be more suitable,whatever),creative,funny,young，etc. U can try it.

          There r only 5 days left.so fast.  I dont wanna say goodbye to Mr. 2009. It bring me back to  some memory about Mr .2008.Cuz frome that time ,i have begun to put Mr before the year number.Yah,it is my lover.isnt it? He is the one who is always by me side all my life till i was dead.So sweet ,right? What about Mr 2010? full of imagination,oh...

          at last i wanna introduce one blog from my friend's friend.she is so cute.u cant miss it.I like all her writings.http://duckduckb.blogbus.com/.(by the way,she is one of the editors of 1626 which is popular in the fashion field or about all the Chao People,hah)

          See u in 2010.